Blind or just stupid?

I did something rather funny/very stupid the other day...

Because I am back on the water aerobics bandwagon, I realized that since it's swimming suit season I need to stock up on suits (amazingly, they're a little hard to find in the winter...and not cheap either.  My last suit fell to pieces in about 3 months and I had to order one online.)  So...I headed off to Kohl's determined to get at least two good suits to add to the one I have.  They had some good ones and they were on sale so I was happy.

Now, imagine my surprise when I go try them on and find out I've gone up a size over the winter. :(  I was bummed to say the least. 

All the suits I took in the dressing room were too small (I could get them on--they just weren't very flattering) so I picked the two I liked and decided to just get the next size up and go buy them.  Shopping done.

So yesterday when it was time to get ready for aerobics I went and put one on.  It seemed rather tight--tighter than I expected it to be, but since I am really determined to lose weight I didn't care all that much.  Off I went to the rec center.  Savannah wasn't particularly impressed with my new suit--she pointed out more than once that my boobs were hanging out and every time I lifted my arm my stomach was showing.  It's a good thing I was in the water or it could have really gotten ugly.  I'm sure anyone wearing goggles and peeking at me underwater probably threw up in their mouth just a little bit.  And I must admit I was more than a little confused--this suit was one size bigger than the one I tried on, yet it sure felt small.

So NOW imagine my surprise when I got home and took the suit off and caught a glimpse of the tag that told me it was TWO FULL SIZES SMALLER than the one I tried on... that's right, two sizes SMALLER than the one I THOUGHT would fit if I hadn't packed on all this weight over the winter.  And by the way, I haven't worn this size since I got married.  Man, did I feel like an idiot.  I went and looked at the tags I had cut off to see if it had been mislabeled but all I learned from that is that apparently I was supposed to take a microscope to read that tag because the number was so tiny I could barely see it.  It was a suit meant for a skinny person with good eyes.  I had both strikes against me.

So now what to do?  I've cut off the tags AND worn the stupid thing (I'm surprised I didn't split the seams...) I am stuck with it.  Patrick said I should just hang it in the closet as motivation to lose weight.  I suppose that's a good idea, but then I wonder if instead of motivating me it will just hang there mocking me every time I look at it--both because it isn't my size and because I was too dumb not to realize that when I put it on in the first place.

Considering I am VERY motivated to lose weight right now, hopefully in the not too distant future it will actually fit. 

But right now I think I'll go check the size of the OTHER suit before I cut the tags off and go flopping around over at the pool in it...